Hurt...

That's how I left SR last night. Tears welling up, disappointment in her voice, claims of disrespect and expressions of hurt. All of which are true.

Plain and simple, I was wrong for not talking to her before basically "announcing to the world" that I was off the market, so to speak. I've acknowledged that, I don't handle these sorts of situations well when a girl likes me much more than I like her. When I know that in the end the relationship won't go anyplace. But instead of breaking the news (and thus their hearts), I avoid it and they find out through other means. Then I look like an ass. It's really not healthy, and definitely something I'll be working with my counselor on.

But on the other hand... Sum hasn't contacted me in a few weeks, LF has already talked to me about it (though she was kind of stalkerish about it).. and now SR is taken care of. All 3 situations where I handled it poorly. All 3 I hurt in some fashion. All 3 that I should have probably cut it off awhile ago. SR was the longest of the 3... she has even planned on living in a townhouse in the same complex as the one I have a reserve down on... If I live there, it will be interesting, but I believe we'll keep it civil. I will expect some drunken, crying phone calls in the future from her... either that, or avoidance from her in the future once we wrap up this bowling session (which we're on the same team for).

So I caused a broken heart... but at least I got my boxers back from SR. The exchange of belongings at the end of a relationship... awkward.