My Spidey senses are tingling...

If there's one thing in life that I've learned, it is to trust my instincts. Throughout my life I've been pretty perceptive of people's feelings and motivations. I've also been wrong in some assumptions, but rare is that case.

Right now, my Spidey senses are telling me that LF is about to drop off and not be involved with me anymore. How do I know? Well, I'm not getting 30 text messages a day from her anymore. I haven't been getting calls from her either. Remember how she mentioned her date the other date? Yeah, so she's obviously starting to branch out. Do I blame her? Not really. I haven't been devoting as much time as she wants into the situation, but as I've stated in this blog her neediness is grinding.

Last we spoke on the phone, she talked about how she "just wants someone to spend time with me". Definitely a sign of co-dependence. I mean, I can understand, it sucks being alone. She feels that she's been "alone" for a long time now and wants someone beside her all the time. Right now, I don't have that much time to give, nor do I want to devote my whole free time to having to be around her. I want to be around someone when I feel comfortable, it takes a lot for me to share my personal space now. She feels suffocating at times. She would always put constraints on our interactions. At one point, she told me that she didn't want to sleep with me unless she stayed the night. However, she did sleep with me a few times without spending the night. So why is it an issue that she's not on me anymore?

I guess it's more of a pride issue. Yet again I couldn't completely fullfil a woman's needs and wants. That she's at a point where someone else will fill the gaps (no pun intended) for her. With how my dating streak is going, and from what I've learned over the past 2 years is that there are plenty of fish out in the sea. Wrong time, wrong situation, too much baggage from both of us. At least I was nice and saw her through a difficult period in her life, but that support turned into her relying and wanting more from me. I'm not ready for that... wrong time, wrong situation.

Meanwhile tonight I'm meeting AL for a movie. It's strange, when SR and LF have asked me to do things, I've been either avoiding it, or denying it. With AL, I want to go spend time with her... It could be my curiosity as to why she finally came around. What changed in her life? Am I really second fiddle to the rest? Or does she finally realize that I could be good for her? I'll delve into that a bit more with her, but for the time being I'm just enjoying it.

Yesterday I finally bit and bought a 1 month subscription on an online dating site. We'll see what cultivates from there. There is at least one woman I want to meet, I've sent her an email before and a "flirt" but no response.... But it's another door that's open for new opportunities to come through.