Cutting dead weight...

Between 6 soccer teams, my physical therapy, the social life with my friends, and my Warcraft, it makes it challenging to balance multiple relationships. There's not enough hours in the day, let alone the week to be able to adequately maintain each one.

Does this mean I should cut down to just one? No way.

However, just cutting it down to 1 or 2 might be more reasonable. But which ones?

Big Turkey Bowling is starting this Wednesday. SR is on my team... remember her? Might make it a bit awkward if I drop any interaction with her, although she is beginning to ween off. I spoke with her last weekend, and we spoke a bit about how things were going with her. She's beginning to get cold feet about the townhouse, since it'll literally be right across the street from me. It wouldn't surprise me if she ends up backing out of hers.

She also spoke a bit about where she was in life, how she was boarderline thinking of going back to school, how she felt she should be married or at least in a stable relationship right now, etc. All of which is scary to think about. If she went back to school, it wouldn't be here in Portland. Relationsip wise, of course I'm not ready to settle down, let alone get married any time soon. Since she and I tend to have history, of course some of her longings are towards me, but I know that in the end that I wouldn't not be with her. It might be hard on her to be there seeing me weekly, yet knowing I'm not involved with her anymore.

Sum also just called me wanting to do something on Thursday. But on Thursday I have 2 soccer games... Fitting her in on that day won't work. I have a soccer game tonight as well, but I could feasibly meet her afterwards. Short notice, not sure if she'd be up for that. Wednesday is bowling, Thursday is 2 soccer games, Friday is a soccer game. Saturday the Portland Timbers have their playoff game... Sunday I have a noon soccer game... maybe Sunday night, but then again there's football. Maybe she'll want to watch the game someplace....

Last night LF came over to watch the second game of the NFL double header that was on. She has been having a hard time with her new job, and in fact is spending today trying to find a different job. She was way stressed out and did nothing but complain for the first part of the night. After a beer and her being able to vent, her attitude changed and of course we ended up having sex. Afterwards, she complained how she doesn't spend enough time with me, how I need to invite her to my games, yadda yadda yadda.

I'm not quite sure I'm ready to have her around more, as that will shoe horn out others and also eat up my free time, plus require me to be further into a relationship with her...

I'm just not ready yet. Something, someone has to give. Let alone the fact that AL is starting to want to do things with me as well...