How to distance yourself.

Ever get the feeling that you're "out of place" in a relationship?

LF texted me a few times yesterday, she was going through a range of emotions. Sadness and anger from the procedure she's going through today (in a half hour, to be precise), to job frustration for finding out a job opportunity to her was actually from a shady business. I've only known this girl for about a month, lots of these topics are pretty heavy and have a big effect on her life, makes me feel out of place on giving her guidance on how to handle it all.

I mean, I'm not the one having to go through her health issue, my job is running fine, I have no large issues of my own except for my pending move and purchasing of a new home that should occur in a month. It's curious, my life is coming together, hers is in a down turn of sorts.

To be a nice guy and a supportive person in her life I gave her a call after I left work. I guess that it was nice to do this, however it allows her to become more reliant on me. I felt way out of place with her telling me that in fact she didn't have anyone to come be with her today. I did somewhat offer earlier in the week, but she let me know that she would have someone around and didn't need me. Well, obviously that changed.

Unfortunately I had a soccer game last night, so that threw my schedule in a kink, and making it and seeing her wasn't an option. I was already dead from not enough sleep the last few nights and frankly just wanted to be home and vegitate out a bit. She then started to cry and asked if I would come over, so I let her know what my schedule was, and that it would be hard for me to do both. She then let me know that she would call her girl friend D. Well, D is a much better person for LF to be around, as D is a) a woman and b) known LF longer than I have. Made sense to me, so I didn't feel too guilty after that.

I felt kind of bad, as I was her first option for support... but many things just made me feel uncomfortable about it. She'll be okay.

But today is the big day of the procedure and she just let me know that she started it.... we'll see how she does today and tomorrow for the aftermath.