So I'm not an asshole?

LF called me yesterday and asked if I wanted to play tennis. I think I last played tennis in high school, so roughly 12 years ago or so, but she enjoys it, so why not?

Yesterday was beautiful here. Weather was around 80, sunshine and not many clouds in the sky. As a bonus, she wanted to play near my home at a local park. On top of all of this, she wanted to watch the second half of the Monday Night Football game at my place after tennis. Where did this girl come from?!

I felt a bit obligated to spend some time with her, even though I have recently felt a big urge to go on a Warcraft binge. Especially with her upcoming procedure, she really needs the support of people she likes/loves, I'll always do my part. We agreed to meet up at 6pm at Grant, so that would give me time to go to the gym after work to lift weights and then meet her at the park.

Tennis can feasibly kick my butt back into shape, but my back was feeling really hurt last night (I have developed sciatica, and need to get it fixed), so it was more of me attempting to hit the ball over the net to her, and her running a lot back and forth because my shots were way off (or I guess in tennis that's good because that's how you score, but whatever). It was a lot of fun though, since the weather was nice and the company was nice from her. She told me some news that today (Tuesday) she's going in for an interview to do athletic equipment sales, and it's a commission job. Something that she's been striving for to make her income stable. Good news on that front. Yadda, yadda, yadda... we spoke about other things as well.

After tennis, we went back to my place where we watched the game. She talked a lot to me about how she felt, how it was nice that I wasn't an 'asshole', that it appeared that I cared about her and didn't want to change. All I guess which are true... I'm not an asshole, but I'm not always straight forward. If she only knew about the others, I'm sure her views would change. I'm just concerned that she's becoming more reliant and dependent on me, getting involved with her, and with this big situation that just came up make her more attached to me, as I'm nice to her and don't put her off with her issues. Her closest friend lives on the east coast, and she says that she doesn't have many friends around here that she feels comfortable sharing information with. I'm pretty sure I don't want to stay with her in the long run.... it's going to be a mess to pull out of our situation... I really don't want to be an asshole.